What adoption needs to be.

I was interviewed for a few publications for adoption awareness month in November. By the time I spoke with the third author it was apparent that my adoption story is not what most wanted to hear. They were hoping for a story about a fresh from the womb baby saved from their birth mother and…

We found ourselves in a crowded room at a DSS 90 minutes from home, against all of my desires. Did I want to parent this child? Yes, I did. Did I also want to run from what felt really big and hard? Yes. I surely did. In fact, I had tried to. I had said…

Every day is mother’s day.

I had a few wishes for mother’s day… -clear skies so we could head to my favorite park, after grabbing lunch at my favorite falafel place -delivery of the outdoor dining set I ordered earlier that week so we could eat dinner outside, still hoping to speak clear skies into existence -to *maybe* have our…

look away.

While we shuffled through a dark hall, our eyes temporarily blinded by the sudden darkness of the underground basement, power out in this part of the massive building for who knows how long, I thought of what our translator said in the car on the way here: “But you will tell when you return to…

Ransom

We walked outside for the first time this day. Her eyes darted around and then squinted when the first sliver of sunshine touched her face. It hit me with the heaviest weight: she had never left those green and orange walls. She had never felt sunshine on her face or seen the green of the…

Banitsa

Yesterday was a brutal fifth day after brutal four before it. First one kid was super sick, then the next and then worst nightmare, the baby caught it, too. We had tried to keep them all quarantined throughout the weekend and I cancelled most of my work so I could rock and soothe and hold…

In full bloom

Yesterday the bright splash of yellow at the corner of our fence caught my eye. The show off of our yard is definitely the two beautiful cherry blossoms in the front, so this little yellow guy sometimes goes unnoticed, but is equally beautiful. I think a lot of life is kind of like that. Having…