Sweetest dreams

The last three weeks have broken and mended and expanded my heart in a million ways. Watching a child learn to exist in a family, learn to trust in her parents, learn to reach for comfort is both beautiful and intensely painful. Every time she reaches for me, I am reminded that she has never…

Two weeks

Two weeks ago I was half way across the ocean with our daughter, who would become a US citizen when our plane landed. We worked our way through an impossibly long immigration line, got luggage that felt infinitely heavier than when I loaded it in Sofia, and dragged us all to the shuttle pick up…

Best day ever.

After a hard but not restful sleep, fueled by jet lag and interrupted by the noises of Bulgaria, a country where people seem to live outside, late dinners, excitable language echoing off of buildings old and solid, painted in the hues of Europe: yellow, faded red, shabby grey, doors of cabs opening, then closing, then…

Tomorrow!

Last night I tossed and turned, my new normal. Since a kiddo brought home head lice this week (our first time… aren’t we so lucky?) I spent the night, in part, itching at imaginary (I hope!) lice and in part realizing that in just a few short days I will be holding our little girl…

Packing for your International Adoption pick up trip

I am by no means an expert here, so read ahead with that warning in mind. I will update when we get home on whether my best guesses were successful. However, this post is the result of searching online for such a list and coming up empty handed, so I thought I would make my…

Being anti-adoption on world adoption day

Today is world adoption day and as someone who has just this week completed an adoption half way across the world, I am even more excited than the previous four year to participate. But, I am sad, too. I am sad for every instance that adoption is necessary. I am sad for every infant separated…

the morning after & rose mimosas

I cried so much yesterday that my eyes are perma shut. I cried because I was scared and then I cried because I was overjoyed and then I cried because I was humbled and then I cried because I was… very sleepy. ha. Today is a new day. Today is back to things to do,…