This skin

Recently a friend was telling me what a great candidate I am for botox. I smiled and said “yes, I know.” And I do know, because ten years ago, I heard the same words from a local plastic surgeon, right before he injected it into my face. What made me a great candidate, though, has…

Four weeks

We have been home four weeks, and are settling back into a new normal. The old normal was wondering what it would be like to see her face for the first time, and the new normal is knowing she is missing in our every day. The old normal was holding our breaths in fear that…

1580 days

Today is day 1,580 since we agreed to adopt. Since arriving home from holding our little one, I have been feeling overwhelmed facing 120+ days without her, but I realized today that I was looking in the wrong direction. How can 120 days feel so hard when over a thousand are already behind me? How…

Coffee crying, rebel hearts & surrender

{totally nonsensical image, but this struggle-wagon-cry-baby is awfully glad she has superheroes to get her through the wait!) For most of my life, I’ve held a tiny piece of my heart as mine. I was acutely aware from a very young age that some people who shared some of my experiences became hard from their…

Day five, saying “see you soon”

Day five was brutal. We checked out of hotel Phenix and headed to the attorney’s office to sign all of the documents that allowed our agency to represent us in court. We had been prepared for this, as we also needed to officially name her. When it was time to hand me the pen, I…

Day four: Visa photo!

All week we looked forward with great anticipation to Thursday, because it was the day we were busting out of the baby home and going out on the town! In order to immigrate to the US, baby girl needs a visa and in order to get a visa, baby girl needs a visa photo! HOLLAH!…

Day Three: Happy, Happy, Happy!

On day three my stomach was in knots as we headed to the baby home. We were very understanding that she was not feeling well, and we also understood that the point of the trip was to officially accept the referral, and we felt more than able to do so. Mission accomplished. But still… we…