Banitsa

Yesterday was a brutal fifth day after brutal four before it. First one kid was super sick, then the next and then worst nightmare, the baby caught it, too. We had tried to keep them all quarantined throughout the weekend and I cancelled most of my work so I could rock and soothe and hold…

In full bloom

Yesterday the bright splash of yellow at the corner of our fence caught my eye. The show off of our yard is definitely the two beautiful cherry blossoms in the front, so this little yellow guy sometimes goes unnoticed, but is equally beautiful. I think a lot of life is kind of like that. Having…

Gains

“So… how is she really doing?” a friend asked me recently. “Great! She is doing so, so well!” I replied, earnestly. My friend let out her long-held breath and said “That is so good to hear, Steph. So the feeding and the swallowing and the hearing and the immobility and her eyes and the lingering…

Three months since forever!

It’s been three months since I walked into a cold, silent orphanage and walked out holding my new daughter. It’s been wild and wonderful. It’s been heartbreaking. It’s been healing. It’s been exhausting, emotionally. It’s been humbling. It’s been a front row seat to God’s miracles. We love you so, little Ro. Thank you for…

Slow down

Today I was cleaning out a closet in my son’s room to make a space for another kiddo. This room my two “middle” boys shared when we first moved here nine years ago, and I was unprepared for the time capsule that was their former closet. It’s been a baby room, a playroom and a…

Doing what we can

You know you can’t save them all, right? We know. We are just doing what we can. You know your kids may grow up resenting that you did this, right? We know. We are all just doing what we can. You know that child’s parents will get them back and they will forget you even…

Nothing crazy

When we decided to adopt in 2014, I never in a million years imagined that it would be as complicated and messy as it has been for us. In my whinier moments I lament that I know no one who has been qualified that has had the door shut in their faces as many times…